Best Friend

I loved my husband when I married him, that was the happiest day of my life marrying my best friend. I stood by him through hard times unemployment, sickness and uncertainty.

After leaving him it was still hard to stop caring for him, though he has made it easier by continuing to put me down and belittle me.

Hard to not pay his fees for the clubs we where both members off, hard to not write both our names on the baby cards of our friends.

Perhaps sometimes trying so hard, has it down side, someone who tried so hard after his unemployment that he worked when he should have rested, resulting in food poisoning, fainting, fractured skill and a hospital stay and months of work.

Where is the lovely person I married, how did they just disappear into thin air. How can when all the crazy things we used to do be so safe and a simple Euro star business trip to another European county mean the person I married is wiped off the face of the earth forever,  that my soul mate no longer exists.