The End

Today I am so thankful for my best friends I love how they can understand exactly how I’m feeling.  And appreciate all the support and love they give me, they are wonderful women.

I have never once regretted leaving my husband, my life was so terrible with him that when it finally came to the end, to that one final chance of can we fix this and yet again he put me down, belittled me and made me feel like a piece of human garbage.

It was the final straw that he was never going to change; I had put up with and wasted too many years already being his PA and his verbal punching bag. Life with him, when I felt I had given everything till there was literally nothing more left of me, he had taken it, used it, sucked all the life out and then spat it out like a piece of chewing gum that has been chewed for far too long.

To all the married people who told me it will get better, you will have to start from the beginning again, yes I will and I have but while starting over is scary. It’s also about new beginnings and being able to think about what you really want in life, now that you understand more what the options really are and what you really want and need. So its also about new beginnings.

Each person has to work out what's right for them, no one else can tell you what is right for you, because they haven’t lived in your shoes and you will find it.

It’s hard to tell people that my marriage is over, that I’m in the middle of my divorce. Not just because its hard but also, because mostly they say I’m sorry to hear that your marriage has ended, but for me my life was so terrible in my marriage that I’m not sad to be out of that terrible place, I’m glad to be alive and no longer dieing a slow death.